Janice

I am 

emotionless 

negative 

and foolish

trying to find something a white spot? a light? the light!

that could give me a push into an unkown world of mysteries that I disire to discover...

the push that could make me believe i belong somewhere...

the place where I'm determine to be who i really am..

without pretending to be different 

without feeling like im not able to acomplish anything

but im beggining to see that im just making my life complicated

i realized  that even if i still feel emotionless

at least i remember that i saw that littlle white place inside my memory 

that way, I would not hesitate to go there and try one more time to find my bona fide self

serching for the place where i belong 

to finally feel 

passionate

confident

and happy