The Hidden
Internal and external should both show me
but sometimes I hide qualities that fill me up internally
the true me is hidden with this mask put on externally
I am living this fake popular life nervously
And my internal characteristics are locked up undeservedly
I am operating this lifestyle with a whole wad of absurdity
I cannot breathe out the carbon dioxide stuck inside of me
Panting under this mask for its suffocating my identity
Epilepsy is armored up fighting this mask that’s stuck on like glue
Trying to reveal the hidden battle that I’m actually going through
Still remember 8th grade when epilepsy made its first debut
Seizures caused tears to form under my mother’s eyes like dew
Had me waking up with this excruciating pain and searching for undo
Only I couldn’t take back this permanent undecided tattoo
Seizures left me dazed and confused
I’d be clueless as if I was induced
For a moment I thought it’d be best if I just withdrew
How could I be a smart accomplishing leader if I am an epileptic
I wanted to continue my life so I told myself I know what the next step is
I knew that from here on out I needed to be an actress
Act like I don’t have Mr. “stupid” controlling epilepsy
Act like I don’t let this powerful man get the best of me
Act like I don’t have feelings that he uses to test me
Act like I couldn’t get this mask off because the glue had no remedy
Soon I realized that acting wasn’t the job for me
Why cover up my life instead of live as I believe
I applied the glue’s remedy
called the truth, the mask then easily
fell right off pleasingly
my identity was revealed and it consisted of epilepsy
and I showed the role epilepsy played inside of me
how it actually helped me become the leader that I dreamed to be
because it taught me to keep running the race even if I had hardships that clung on to me
it taught me that the word no can mean nothing to me
how not to let epilepsy hinder me from being what I aspire to be
and now I, an aspired future neurologist to be
will help kids who entered a state of depression like me
So now I say I am a proud epileptic honestly
and I continue to walk up the mountain carrying epilepsy along with me
the hidden is hidden no more for I pledge to live my life truthfully!