CHANCES
My heart burns
It burns with the taste of medal
Every time I see you, every time you turned into the devil
Every time the tears streamed down my skin and our words wrestled
When you turned so violent and my respect for you sunk so deep it became irretrievable
How you could treat a toddler, a child, inconceivable
Now I’m halfway out the door, all the things that you swore
When I was four on that video I found on the floor
The love I must’ve felt from you galore
All the years I felt like I would never be enough
All the times you decided not to show up
Now are all folded up and stuffed, shoved under a part of my heart
That I’ll never be able to tell apart
I know you’ve tried your best and it should be addressed
But what you’ve put me through should be expressed
And it burns, it burns, oh god does it burn
All of the love that I used to yearn.