Patricia Holman

I've been told, sometimes you have to see the good in the things that have hurt you the most But it's painful Trying to find the positive in a model that reflects everything negative So I make a T-Chart List everything good on one side and everything bad on the other Approaching pen to paper with all good intentions But a minute into writing, my heart feels heavy with regret And my mind is clouded with words that are coming too fast I press down my ballpoint with rage How can I forgive someone that has hurt me? I should damn them and leave them for a pillar of salt! But an earthquake emerges, followed by a flood, followed by a drought And withered up beneath me is a single page Never deserving of my punctuations and sharp exclamation points The page is the victim As I stand, panting in my emotions Trying to find the clear air and calm winds One side of my page is heavy with fury While the other is light with empathy I ask God to forgive me Bless me with deliverance So maybe, I can find the gravity to forgive others