Chiliyah

Maybe I messed up a long time ago 
Maybe I shouldn't have just went with the flow
Because when I did, I still held on to pain.
No matter how hard I try to ignore it, it kept coming like rain.
Trying to overlook the what broke our connection
Blaming myself for not showing that much affection...
As much as the person you messed with
Maybe it was because he had a .....
I know this same sex world is different
But you shouldn't have came into my life if you wasn't trying to live it
You knew what you were getting too
I just wish I knew the same as you ..