Pointlessness
Pointlessness, a constant feeling of being horrified beyond belief, an intense feeling
of the absolute end. Waking up and not being able to get out of bed, every second of
everyday is a battle to survive your terrifying feelings. You feel the immense you can't
think straight, it's not about personal strength or being weak, it is an illness that
swallows your life. Indifference of the world. Your world stands still and every object
you see, every person you see, sends you a feeling that you are worthless and nobody
cares. Mental terror- seems like it will never ever ever go away. You want to do
something about it but you are tied up. It is anger without the enthusiasm. Sadness
without the comfort of tears. You just stare, and feel the most hollow, scary feeling,
your spirit is, your passion dies, the joy you once had seems like somebody else's.
You want to duck tape yourself to your bed, never eat, and nothing, even comforting
words from your teachers and supportive friends