Be Enough
“
Scream!
Scream, my darling, I promise you that
my words are not nooses,
my love not poison,
my kisses not lethal injection.
Scream, my darling, I promise you that
You cannot starve and drown at the same time,
You cannot possibly hurt while feeling pleasure,
You cannot be mad when I did not intend to hurt you.
Scream, my darling, I promise you that
When my bullet buries itself in your heart,
When your lungs choke on the tar of my words,
When your hand turns to a gun that you turn on yourself-
Scream, my darling, I promise you that
I never meant to hurt you.
”
“
No, my darling, I do not know
What love feels like
(You never loved me)
No, my darling, I do not want to be
Your perfect flower
Your pristine bride
Your plaything
No, my darling I am not
A bullet
A weapon
A monster
“
“
Smile!
Smile, my darling, I will promise you that
Love is not meant to hurt
Love is not meant to drive daggers into your heart
Love is not turning yourself into a bullet so that someone else will have to feel your pain
Smile, my darling, I will promise you that
You will never have to dig out the glass in your heart by driving a knife through your skin
You will never have to cry into a pillow, hoping I won’t hear
You will never have to be something you’re not
Smile, my darling, I promise you that
You are not the words they said you were
You are yours, not mine
You are beautiful
Smile, my darling, I promise you that
I will never intentionally hurt you
If I do I will apologize
I will make it right
“
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Goodbye, my darling, tonight
I will not fold
I will fight
I will never be yours again
Hello, my darling, tonight
I will love you in every way I can
I will be hard without being brittle
I will stay with you without feeling trapped
Darling, tonight
I love you
And that will be enough for us