y2cady

dear ocd--

you have manifested and festered

you have begun and spun my life

turned it inside out

inside my head is a whirlwind

of worries and anxieties

all inside of me

you started out by counting

onetwothreefour

and then you made me afraid of dying

but then made me suicidal

it’s repetitive

and i take dosages of sedatives

to calm you down

the medicine and therapy

hasn’t gotten to me

but it’s gotten to you

through and through

you’re a tamed beast,

a lion in chains,

growling sounds in my ears.

and now you’re here

you’re not my friend

but my roommate i can’t escape

and i survive

and i thrive

and i’ll make it out alive

sincerely--

cady