I thought I knew

knew what love was

when he held me

mentally, and physically

I thought love was to be

yelled at

put down 

stretched thin

with nothing within

but to not be alone

until I learned about you

I heard your heartbeat

and felt you grow within

I became stronger

I became better

I became your mother

I learned self love

because that is what I wanted for you

I learned real love

because that is what I felt for you

I learned happiness

because that is was I dreampt for you

I learned trust 

because you must

when you love 

I saved myself

to save you

because you

have saved me

I left the bad

and angry

and selfish

and hurt

becuase I love you.