Anger. Hate. Rage.

Daddy, this is all your fault.

Every time I close my eyes

All I see is

Everything that went wrong in my life

I see you coming towards Momma with your hand in a fist

Face blank with rage . . . then

Black

No noise, no sound

Blackness

Next it’s 9-1-1, tires screeching, and mindless confusion.

Daddy, I was in her arms

How could you do this to me?

I can’t even remember it

What the Hell wrong with me?

Anger. Hate. Rage.

These emotions are warring like an acidic tornado inside of me

The years fly by but

My mind

Is stuck on replay, replay, replay,

Twisting. Evolving

A monster is coming out

I’m rattling the cage I’m in but I can’t seem to get out of it.

I’m drowning

Deep

Down

It's all your fault.

Anger. Hate. Rage.

Daddy, you’re living your life on the free and easy

No repercussions, no regrets, not even of thought about me!

You’ve never been homeless. You’ve never been bullied, ignored, gossiped about.

You never had to work to get where you’re at.

You were a vicious bully,

A fuckin’ bastard.

It’s all your fault.

Stress

Worry

No innocence, no childhood

There’s no trust, no pain, no friends, no gain.

No boyfriend, no kisses, no hugs, no spontaneity.

This ain’t no life

It ain’t ever been a life

It’s a pit full of shit that I have to sweat and dig my way out of it with

Anger.

Hate.

Rage.

And . . .

Its

All

Your

FAULT!