And What Do I Have to Do
To be the one who speaks to a goat
to see it turn into a pink goddess
to bestow upon me a crown of flowers and blessings and luck for life?
A green goddess would suffice too I suppose.
I live my life peeking over a shield
the statue of one in our front yard
my home rests beneath its accompanying sword.
Twice I cut my brow running through the doorway.
And mother-
my delightful sprite of a caregiver-
called her father over
and they cooed over my sobs until my animal noises disappeared into
silence.
The same silence
in the garden,
the noise the flowers make when they speak.
The grass, however, the green grass I picture my goddess wearing
whispers my name in its Earthly accent.
hhhhheeeeeeehhhhhhsssssssstiiiaaaaaaahhhhhhhh
Hestia.
Hestia!
Come inside, you'll catch a cold.
My mother makes a pool of blankets
by the fire, and I nestle there by the hearth until she calls me to sweep and set the table.
What will it take for my mother to release me to the outdoors?
To explore the place my grandfather says is the upper level.
To understand why he calls it that- and where the lower levels must be.
Grandfather Hades
Watchful of my mother, watchful of me.
Warning me that I do not want the gods or goddeses who do exist to meet me.
My mother's scornful eye watching him in turn.
They call me Hestia
in hopes I turn out the domestic queen they mold me to become.
I've heard of the pink Persephone
and go on about the green Demeter
and my grandfather tells me to hush and set the table faster-
he is getting hungry.
I long to live outside
and see have a goddess take me away.
Between my thoughts, I hear my mother and her father
and he tells her of Persephone- the real Persephone-
and her witch of a mother Demeter
and how he so wishes the my own mom could have met either one.
She gives him a sharp look, and tuens to serve dinner.
Grandfather Hades and my Grandmother
named her Aphrodite.
And in line with the tales I hear of the real Aphrodite,
she hates talk of other women
even if they are
Grandmother Persephone and Great Grandmother Demeter.