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Crafty

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The street is strolling merrily along when

our hovering, fiery daytime stalker fingers his glow-gun at the dark tint of my passing-by storefront display:

In the bullet-wake of his hot rays plays Prometheus for me in a world of central heating and grand stone hearths-  staring back from the sand-to-double-glass is a 

little girl's rag doll,

 patchwork quilt- there, in that square:

hat, oversized, product of flirting thievery from an old white knight who would ride away without it, now, and miss the brim more than the grin beneath it.

 

There,

chipped polish from

trying to look groomed and failing miserably,

impatient chronic lateness spreading streaks and clumps of half-dried color on the carpet, seats and skyline

top

maybe too tight by donuts and

ice cream or

by account of being from back-when

before first kiss first cigarette first glimpse of

unzipped ripped jeans, denim ridden skin too long too low too riding over rumble strip-

scarred angry jut of hipbones bursting through the beltloops tracing sharpie friends inscriptions down- all over, these pants are signed like casts- more cleverly worded get-well-soons for legs that work and work and never will...

that break and split and never will..

sit in stride with the shoes barely visible beneath then, flops with worn soles and sorely unclipped toes picked up from so much sporting that pedicures are bust and blister-band-aids claim the budgets.

 

 

For a closer look-

a cracked compact snatched from sister's dressing table,

fought bitterly about- 

there are

mom's green eyes and

dad's full cheeks and

salon color blonde from boys that claim they liked it running through their sticky handsy half-man fingers,

bright eye

makeup 

sweetly feathered

lashes from salesmen 

that claim it's the look for today;

Ex-almost-stepmom's foundation and

homemade piss-em-off piercings with friend's sterilized earrings, strong fingers and beer;

blush from the roommate and lip liner stolen from somewhere laying out the red clay track for 

crest white teeth and listerine-conditioned words like

“awesome,” “sweet,” and other known responses,

spilling brand name slang  into tests and onto pages, the same nighttime revelations and day-to-day

fixations.

 

there's the smile that I learned saying goodbye to him and the frown I picked up fighting and the wrinkled puffy proof of last night and

the cigarettes I stole protecting you and

the smoke rings I was courted with while we were screaming at the metro

and the shape of our anguished lips matched the electric wheels.

 

There are

friction marks from fingers his and his and yours and mine-

especially mine- and I am recreating every faded set of hickeys and lightly set teeth onto my swallowing throat and covering them up with

7th grade's futile lime juice and off-shade concealers 8th grade turtlenecks and 9th grade scarves and 10th grade's long limp hair and 

somewhere in there, forgetting to care.

 

There

is the no-heels toughgirl concrete way of standing from so many damming tactics and

the hipswing from my model-actress friends 

the always carrying a pen and

sad-sack cynical hack look from some writer I plagarized-

the hair, I see, is from late night TV and half the jokes aren't funny to me, 

just rhetoric- the way we laugh in circles so we talk in circles,

at least,
I talk myself in circles-

dogma-anti-point authority slumming 

money in the bank and broke on the street because 

so is everybody else my age

and I realize I have bought my plastic face and with the rest of girls like you and me and him and her

have sold my soul in pieces to every stranger that I meet

and love and hate for taking some small motion of myself

and replacing it with theirs.

there are other people quilting,

preening all their many lives to either side and

I am this image:

fingers stretched to touch my stitching,

kissprint on the glass.

Comments

Bold as Winter

Wow, I don't usually comment but this was gorgeous, I absolutely loved this. Very, very nice.

livelifewrite

Thank you so much for your kind words!

JHazy

This is fantastic. Unlike anything I've ever read!

Jess Ross

This is completely relatable, and shows a strong message.... Its wonderful.

bloeza

congrats on ur win!

Grant-Grey Guda

Powerful expression. Always let poetry fill your life. Keep expressing your heart.  

mangocaulfield

I wish this was put up all over my school! (we have a thing for poetry all over the wall.)