dear mom and dad
dear mom and dad,
i am not perfect. i am not an A-honor roll kid. i am not the virgin, innocent little girl you wish to see.
i am human. i am smart enough. i am free.
i know people do look up to me in their own way and i'm barely realizing that.
they call me funny, free-spirited, mature, wise, thoughtful, big hearted, strong.
i try to please everyone at a time before i please myself. this is what gets me hurt.
i worry about everything: money, friends, weight, diets, family, self-confidence, wardrobe, love, enemies, my past.
i tend to not look in the mirror bc i'm scared i'll see my scars i try to hide.
i smoke to numb the pain, i drink to become someone else. i have an alter-ego, her name is Bnasty.
she's amazing. strong, confident, sexy, out-going, fearless, stubborn, a fighter.
i know my limit and i know who i am. i don't try to be something i'm not.
i am me, and i am perfectly imperfect.