I write this,

 

thinking everything will be fine,

 

but I've learned not to get my hopes up.

 

Learned not to love too much.

 

Learned not to speak too much.

 

I write this,

 

looking at her,

 

loving her,

 

but not too much.

 

Loving her too much.

 

Loving her unconditionally and she doesn't know.

 

I write this, 

 

breaking my only two rules I held myself

 

accountable for.

 

Don't love too much.

 

Don't get your hopes up again.

 

Your heart will only get broken.

 

I write this,

 

ignoring all the rules,

 

loving her,

 

saying this time will be...

 

different.