Emptiness
Location
I go throughout my days
radiating this confidence
that I can’t even believe
exists in me
I play my cards
I make my face
seem like I’m living a dream
friendly smiles just to please
everybody else
to prove I’m worthy
I march with pride
I give my full self and attention every second
I’m a mess
All throughout the emptiness
Always in a crowd of people
Where I still feel alone
With something tangible in my hands
Hoping it will save me
From the void that I’m living
and I’m feeling
anticipating that it will magically evaporate
Most mornings, I’m okay
I wake up to the sun
I sing my praises
to a new, bright, and wonderful day
I enjoy meeting people
I love making new friends
But certain elements in life
can’t save you from the emptiness
It curses me at night
I swear it hears my pleas
It wanders into my brain
just to mock me
As I stare up at the ceiling
vulnerable
the pain has a subtle weight bearing in me
I’m unable to catch a moment of sleep
even when I’m exhausted from the week
and it is 2 o’clock in the morning
but throughout this emptiness
I take the time to breathe
to make it through each second,
every minute, each hour
that I’m drowning in the waves that surround this world
knowing someday I will feel full again
satisfied and grateful for the intended moment of my revival