Empty Yet Whole
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- You're cold, stone-hearted... Void of feelings!
- Yes, that's me.
That's who I grew up to be.
His eyes are transfixed upon mine,
Killing me slowly...How divine.
- A restless soul, that's what you are! -
His voice still echoes from afar. -
- You never settle, always floating!
These crazy dreams you are devoting
So much of time...attention to.
What else you need? - I've got no clue.
- But aren't you happy? Tell me why
Our connection's gone awry?
Do you not care anymore?
- I do! ... I don't... Not like before.
He stiffens. I don't dare to breathe.
I might just faint now if he leaves.
So many words are left unspoken -
How do I tell him that I'm broken?
I need some fixing, mending...God!
I need at least some time apart!
- I should've known my heard'd get hurt...
Thrown into trash as if scrubbed dirt.
- I don't want to discuss the matter...
- Why would we? Let's avoid the clatter.
He shrugs nonchalantly, looks up.
He's so on ease - a cover up...
Sarcasm is dripping from his mouth...
His words now North when once were South.
- Let's just pretend we never were.
It'll save us heartbreak - that's for sure.
- Why are you hurting me? - I plead.
My heart has just begun to bleed.
- Me? Hurting you? Wake up at once!
In rage and anger he now grunts.
Forever etched inside my brain
Our conversation under rain.
But what a bliss it was to know
That someone cared enough to show
His disappointment and confusion -
Through hurtful words, maybe, but still -
At least he wasn't an illusion,
An empty space he tried to fill.
- Will it be easy to pretend?
He blinked, startled at the question.
- ... It will amount to being dead...
Or at least a long-lasting depression...
His eyes are transfixed upon mine,
Killing me slowly... How divine...
What bliss and wreakage it all brings -
To feel like paupers, yet still kings!