Hidden
Im shy at first
proud and silent I sit there
beaming with an internal thirst
i am nothing but an animal caught in a snare.
sometimes i wish life would knock on my door
to scream, shout, spew happiness into my soul
to show god and hell, and explain what I'm here for;
to shine bright like gold or tumble and crash into a puddle of coal?
Friends and family are just words
Happy Optimistic Proud are all actions they see
I show my personality in thirds;
Positive and cheery; unexceptional; who I want to be.
My past is a trap inside a trap inside a trap
My brain rolls to a never ending stop.
All i crave is a simple map;
Something, anything, to show that my life will not flop.
I cannot show my true self,
When I myself am not done with the puzzle.
Scientists do not show the unfinished work on the shelf,
Therefore I choose to wear an internal muzzle.