Him
I smiled at him
from across the cafeteria
and then the gym,
and he smiled back.
Tall, dark, and handsome,
but I knew that was not all.
Day by day
I slowly learned
his secrets and his fears.
We walked and he smiled at me
as if I was the glowing sun after a rainy day.
It melted my heart.
In the Spring he asked me,
with flowers and lights
to the dance that high school girls dream of.
We danced the night away,
his smile brighter than the stars.
Spring became Summer
I was his girl,
he called me his sunshine.
We laughed and swam,
and every day I was graced
with that marvelous smile
that fueled my sunlight.
As Summer came to a close
and I counted down those endless nights
I found myself standing,
my driveway was still in the shadows
tears everywhere,
filled with uncertainty and fear
of what was to come.
It was a new beginning for him,
off to the University he went,
and here I remain
to finish my last year.
As he drove off into the night,
flashing one last loving smile,
clouds rolled into my bright world.
I was left confused,
drenched in darkness.
I thought I was okay
I thought that I could do it on my own,
but the clouds cried with me,
I couldn’t.
I need him,
and he needs me.
His bright smile on the tiny screen of my phone
clears the darkness away a little.
Day by day he loves me from afar,
and I give him all that I can.
We count down the days together
until we can embrace once more.
I crave those days,
when I will run into the sunlight to his smiles,
escaping my gloomy world.
I cannot live without him
and he cannot without me.
I know I never will,
and I would rather be together and apart,
than not together at all.
But not a day goes by
that I don’t need his smile,
to fill me up
with light once again.