……..

Why? Why did you have to do it?

To ruin a good thing, a happy thing, a comfortable thing?

A thing that took such a long time to build, but mere seconds to break,  

To destroy.

I’m asking you why, why my- I thought you were my friend

-Was it all a lie?

Because that’s what it seems like,

Trust so cautiously given was so carelessly dumped,

With you hissing angry words with a cold, biting voice.

Tell   Me   How.

Tell me how you switched so quickly from a person I thought I knew

To cold, bitter, calculating –I guess you were hurt too.

I guess that’s the way with life though

One minute it’s there, the next it’s gone, floating on a mist,

So delicate, so fragile that you question its existence.

But that’s the difference between us and life.

I know you were real, -I felt it.

Felt it in the way you used to speak with so much strength and warmth and humor and- hm

Knew it in the way you walked- strong as you carried the burden of the world on your shoulders.

I felt your existence in the way you comforted me, lifting my frowns the way only you could.

And though I’m not sure what comes next, I’m going to trust.

The Universe has a way of working things out, you know

So I’m going to trust.

Trust in the thing that makes a plant grow sturdy even in the desert

With no water in sight.

Without you I’m withering slowly.

But I’ll trust that I’ll grow, I‘ll thrive like a cactus.

I’ll thrive.. like a cactus..

With my spikes, me, a symbol of endurance and warmth

In these bitter times. I will trust.

Trust in us,

The way only real love can.

No more why’s? and hope, just hope, that it works.

For both our sakes.