They’ll check your smile 

Once in a while 

But no one truly cares 

The are so unaware 

 

My Lifeless body floating through life

Just waiting on afterlife 

Not truly living

Life is so unforgiving 

 

The weight of a simple human emotion 

Weighs me down more than life ever will 

So tired of losing control 

I need someone to keep me grounded 

Maybe that person is me 

But we will see 

As I feel like im not good enough 

For this world other people and even myself 

 

I want to let this feeling go 

I want to gain control 

All alone in my mind 

And maybe in my life 

 

Who knows what’s next for me 

Hopefully something that won’t make me flee 

But for now im going to keep pushing on 

I know how to be strong 

 

But not strong for myself 

Only for others 

I care for others 

But yet can’t care for me 

 

Why can’t I love myself 

That’s the way it should be 

Its a love hate relationship 

Its always manic vs depression me