I would never hurt myself,
that's what I always said to myself.
Until the day I tried
but failed.

Some people found out.
We talked for a while
and for them it was enough.

I wonder if they
ever give it thought
even though I haven't mentioned it again.

I would like to forget
but how can I?
I did do it.
But I would like to believe that it won't happen again.
Even now i say to myself
that I could never harm myself.
But I've said that before
and ended up doing it.

What outcome should they expect?
Should they even be surprised
when I close my eyes before theirs
as my own preference.