If I take one bite

I won't forgive myself

I will not accept 

This body is not mine

This body is not right

I hate it

I don't want it

I can't have it

Magazines, TV, and ads.

Size twos

I am a size three

Nothing has gone right for me

Nothing ever will

I am too ugly

Too fat

Too much 

Staring at the boiling pasta

I suddenly feel weak

I fall to the ground

I am out of breath

I am shaking

My vision disapears

I am no longer alive

I am dead

I am alone

I am hungry