If you only knew why the curtains are never open,
or how my family became broken,
If you only knew why they close the door,
or why my brother's dying from a substance he never used before,
If you only knew why I'm never here,
or why I live my life everyday in fear,
If you only knew what happened when his bacon got burnt,
or why it was my mother he chose to hurt, 
If you only knew the reasons behind my scars,
or why they were all behind bars,
If you only knew how many funerals I've attended,
or how many holes in my heart I have mended,
If you only knew why my family lies to me with no reason, 
or how many years of my life my mind's been controlled by demons,
If you only knew why I self soothed pain with drugs, 
or why that when I was away I could receive no hugs,
If you only knew what it's like to walk in my shoes,
or why my family lives through lies but swear they're true,
If you only knew these things, 
maybe then I could sprout my wings</3