BREATHE. SPEAK. wait, you forgot to think...

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Inside I Feel I've Died
Even Though I AM Alive
I'm Not Trying To Survive
While Filled With Pain
Believing Lies, Period.
I've learned alot from my Father.
In all honesty I did,
But within the honesty, honestly, fake lies aren't counterfeit.
Fake lies are the truth. I believe in the real truth. I believe in the Fake Lies.

But inbetween the both im-

Trying to see where I can go,
Without knowing what i can do, Period.
Gun to my thoughts,
Not knowing how to shoot PERIOD
Just wishing to be heard;
Getting Rejected,
turning mute PERIOD
Hear The Silence.
Listen to the quiet screams.
Yes Love is Real,
But life isn't how it seems.
I'm Sleeping while I dream.
Nightmares seen as I'm Awake.
In reality, I Don't Dream,
because honestly,
I Can't Sleep-
I blame the Hate.
I blame the Pain.
I blame the gates placed in front of Heaven.
I blame the games,
I blame my setting.
I blame rejection,
But most importantly I blame myself.
I've Denied my Denial.
Denying Crying out for help,
I guess it's because I'm Double Minded;
Isn't a quarter two sided?
Sidewalks With lines to divide them, Fractions,
Add that to the minus Of having a Lost Soul,
Happiness gone I'm Trying to Find it.
And It hurts.