Lonesome Love
Who would ever understand
The person that I am
He says he loves, he seems so sure
But he doesn't have a plan
I try and try and try
But only seem to fail
If I try one more time
It will be to no avail
I can't wait for this to end
It's way too complicated
All of my life skill
Just left me totally jaded
Sometimes I seem perfect
And sometimes less than so
Sometimes I feel so worthless
But I can't pretend it's so
I want it to end so badly
But I don't mean in flames
If love and peace are madness
Then I want to be insane
Who's the one controlling me
Who's the fucking boss
I want so badly to be wanted
But I won't win this coin toss
Everytime you smile
And grab at my ass
I have to act interested
But the feelings all have passed
If every day is a new day
Then why do I remember
All the things the past has held
And every fucking sinner
I want it to be over
But sadly that's not right
I live inside a cocoon
And I'll never reach the light