Misinterpreted
I was taught to despise myself
because if I ever felt an ounce of confidence I walked on a thin line of conceit and vanity
I didn't dare want to insinuate that my body is the embodiment of self-love
But since when was confidence a sin?
Once I felt good I'm mistaken as
Narcissistic
Egotistical
Cocky
Why is loving who I am an offense to others
These accusations make you so numb that it hurts
But it's okay, because I comfort myself with the fact that no one can ever love me more than me
I'm all I have my body, my personality: me
These big thighs, chubby face, introverted qualities are calculated to equal beauty
There's nothing I want to change because there's nothing to change
My body maps out constellations
The Big Dipper is traced on my back
The hem of the skyline crumbles in my hand
I won't drown in petty expectations and overlook the miracle of my existence
I don't need to spend hours looking for the dress that makes me look good for you, I'll wear that dress for myself because it happens to make ME feel good
If you think I look bad, go ahead think what you want
Your negativity can't reach me
You can't make fun of my flaws
My defects are my assets
I love every inch of my body
I accepted myself
I don't need to wait for someone to love me
In every moment I love myself
I was put in this body for a reason and it treats me like a treasure
Everyday I wake up reassured because my bones support me, my blood pumps for me
The only place I ever truly feel safe is with myself
Every word I speak is a melody
My eyes sparkle with the ferocity of life
The shine of my smile rivals the sun
I'll never change my physicality
Standards don't define me
I don't need to meet credentials
Everything surrounding me invites me to grow
Nothing can tear down my unblemished buildings of confidence
But wait, let's get this straight I'm not filled with conceit
This isn't egotism
It's loving one self
I'm evolving because I learned to accept myself
I don't have to pretend, I can just believe and say
I am whole
This poem is about:
Me
My community