I hold this pain but choose to hide it from the ones I love,

not because I don't trust them but I don't know what

is stabbing, is biting, is heavy in me

I wanter aimless in the dark I won't reach out my hand

because I'm lost and lonely and I can't tell where I am

It's hard to ask for something I don't even know I need

nameless burdens,

waiting, hurting,

crying, lying

no reason, despising

the person I'm finding 

in me.