I wrote this Poem for those
in the dark feeling
cold and alone
This Is Dark and Cold:

Underneath my sheets I cry myself to sleep

I think how can a human like me feel any less than a human like you

Swollen eyes, messy hair, baggy clothes, I don't care

whispers come

shouting at me

The words of positivity, I use to have

Replced

With negativity

THAT'S MY LIFE NOW

Careless and reckless the marijuana helps it
 

Dark and cold

My hands they tremble, they shake oh how they ache

from the pressure of the pain

That's my life now

Alcohol becomes my friend

My vision consumed by the trend

 

Dark and cold

so alone

not just in my head

so I beg

I pray

Asking for help in all the wrong ways

These faces just don't get it

 

Dark and cold

This night turns darker than the blackest of colors\

no where to go

no one that understands this

Not a clue on how to get through

so I close my eyes

I listen to the life that is left

 

DARK AND COLD

and I lie there in my sorrows

when can it stop

when can I breathe

my mind is racing

my heart is not chasing anything, anymore

my mind sees one way out

I have cried it all out

DARK AND COLD!

I've had ENOUGH!

They stare

they said they care

they pretend to know what it is like

when reality comes forth they all just hide

to overcome this? To stay strong?

You think if I were strong I would even be here?

Go to hell!  I say.

I won't give up

 

DARK AND COLD

I won't back down

I am not alone

I will stand for those in the shadows!
 

DARK AND COLD

I WILL STAND FOR THOSE WITH SCARS BOTH OLD AND NEW

I WILL STAND FOR THOSE ALREADY IN THE GROUND

And together we will all end living in hell

We will teach others to live this life with the love we've longed for,

WE

WILL

RISE

STRONGER

THAN

OUR

SCARS.

-Jessica Gutierrez <3