It's late and I lie awake just thinking.

Thinking about everything around me.

Thinking about the choices I have made.

Choices I'm more than just happy with.

But as the night goes on my deepest thoughts come to the surface.

I think about all my fears,

The ones I don't tell a single soul to.

I think about how I could've said some things differently.

I think about how I could've changed my actions.

All I can do at a time like this is think.

I think about all the people who have done me wrong.

The people that left scars and wounds on me,

The pain I need to heal all by myself.

But I also think about all the people who make me happy.

People that are there for me no matter what.

People that will hug me and tell me that everything will be okay.

People that I can talk to and hang out with all day.

When I feel the hurt,

It feels like I'm wearing a mask,

But that isn't necessarily true.

I hide the hurt,

But only because there isn't much hurt to hide.

Why dwell on it?

If I'm happy then why be upset?

Life is the way it is.

Just got to deal with it.

I've come to learn that.

So I wait for the right moment to lay my head to rest,

Since I want all my questions answered.

So I just lie here on my bed and think.

I think about her.

I think about him.

I think about them.

I think about you.