I want you to know that time did not break my ankles,

I am still walking.

And I felt so much anger at you for what you did,

But it was something you felt- something you couldn't tell.

And I never had triggers before

So you should know you opened a door to a dark, spiraling place

One I never imagined I'd face.

Panic Attacks that's what they said-

I get so caught in my head, my memories start to drown me.

But I can swim because

You are standing beside me even though you tried to take yourself away-

You will never know how happy I am to see you standing here today.

And your weaknesses don't make you stronger

I've seen your strength before-

They don't look like demons dragging you down to the floor.

Your monsters changed you and they changed me too.

But we'll paint the cracks with gold, filling them until we're whole

Because you made me scared this year.

But you're still here.