On What is Worthy of Art
When I was younger I thought Art
was the still life painting of an apple next to a vase,
a meticulous arrangement guarded by a frame and
stationed as a boundary,
charged with keeping out all of life that is messy.
I could not hear the vase whispering that
it was made by motion,
malleable as it spun on the potter’s wheel,
not still but rather marked by its movements.
I used to think art lived inside its frame
that it began and ended in itself
until I listened to the vase insist
We are all vessels
shaped by each rotation of the Earth’s
pottery wheel
mighty by our malleability.
I used to think the art that lived inside of me
was weak when my words wavered under the weight of my
Stutter,
worthy only when whittled and willed into a
smooth sounding stream.
I was convinced my ragged breath turned paintbrush
into razorblade
cutting through canvas until each sound was
stripped, skeletal, and savaged
each word raw, ripped, and ravaged,
and maybe I was right.
But maybe that canvas needed to be stripped away to reveal
the rawness
of vulnerability,
that is unafraid and unabashed
empowered by the honesty of imperfection.
So here I will give you my words
and I will give them to you proudly
because no, they’re not the kind of art that will submit to the walls of frame
but thats okay because they are powerfully spun wild and untame.
Because whoever said talk is cheap never talked to me
He did not know that
my every syllable gets sculpting, my every sound gets painting
and that my stuttered speech is an act of creation
and creation holds back no truth.
So when Merriam Webster defines art as something created
with imagination and skill and that is beautiful
I will see the way my stutter strips away shields
and lets me wear insecurity without fear
And when my introduction takes too long and you ask me if I’ve forgotten my name
I will tell you no, I am simply claiming it every time
and when you try to finish my sentence and take my words as your own
I will tell you that these words were made to spiral off this unharnessed tongue
and when you tell me I am brave just for speaking
I will tell you that wielding my voice is a privilege I never learned to fear.
and when you tell me to slow down and take a breath
I will tell you the words that run through me are fire and they
will not dim their glow for anything
and when you ask me why I speak this way
I will tell you it is art
and when you ask me why I speak this way
I will tell you it is art
and when you ask me why I speak this way
I will tell you it is art
because damn it, some things need repeating.