Don't know what I'm doing

Don't know where to go

All I know is I have to leave soon

Nobody will be there for me

Gotta catch myself when I fall

Maybe someone will be there when I call

But all together I am on my own

I won't give up on my dream

And I wouldn't expect you to

I am not that selfish

I am just scared

Before I leave I just need you to know

I'm not giving up on you

But I can't give up on me

Oh, I love you so

But it is time for me to go

 

I really should be thinking about myself

But here I am writing about other people

So I guess deep down I couldn't care less about myself

As long as you guys are safe and sound

This is saying too much about me because

As I am writing this my heart is pounding

Knowing that all this time that  I've been wasting is all cause I am too scared

Scared that you'll be mad about my life decisons

But this is my life

I don't care what you think

And I'll be myself now that you cannot hold me down

But wow this has really turned around

 

So now I am thinking about me

And I know you will never see shit

There I go again

Why can't I get you out of my mind

Is going crazy

I cannot stop

Stop thinking

Cut these thoughts out of me

And leave them on the train

So i will never have to be reminded of

All my fucked up thoughts

That you guys helped me to create

Tell me why does it always come back to you

Someone please help me get over you

 

You make me hate my mother-fucking god-damn self.