A love for pain

My kindness is my poison And hiding under my skin— Everybody tells me to run So I run towards you. I can't pretend to be normal Because if you crumble me like a wrapper And throw me in the garbage I’ll assume it was because you felt like the bin, And wanted to be closer to me. I'll protect you from the world Telling you not to hide But it's clear that I was the one hiding— And it was from you. I see your bruises, And your brain and heart And that's why I'll love you I see your greed And your lust and anger And that's why I'll hate you But most of all I see myself And that's why I don't hate you But always hate loving you.