All Alone

I don't know what to call it My peers are nice enough But I feel their judgment on me heavily. We laugh and joke But sometimes most of the time no one talks to me. I sit alone in silence Or work on my homework Or listen to music so loud I can't hear them having fun without me. I pretend its ok when there's no one with me, That its ok when they leave me alone to talk to someone else Someone funner than me prettier than me better than me. I know that they may not see it this way That not getting invited to gatherings doesn't hurt That being ignored doesn't hurt. To that I say "TRY IT." Its not intentional, but it hurts.