Black Room

Black is the only color i see darkness is the only color for me. sitting in a big black room alone tilit my head back on the wall at home hoping to feel your lost energy pulsate through me looking for help from people who can no longer understand me sitting in a big black room alone i clinch my chest and try to stay strong hold my head up high to act like nothings wrong with a smile that doesn't quite reach my eyes But no one minds 'cause im the happiest person outside but no one truely knows, no one truely understands. no one's there to hold my hand and help me stand i am truely Alone without you. I honestly don't have a clue of what to do Sitting in a big black room alone all i have is my thoughts to keep me company stuck in my mind, depression is my company victim of the mighty, loyal to the fallen I stick to her like a dog to his bone sitting in a big black room alone i think of what could i do to have helped was there even a way this tragity could have been stopped i have no way of knowing and now im stuck no where to go i've just ran out of luck some tell me to call to the heavens above to believe in him and good will come but how can i when theres no one there i dream of my hope is lost my mind is gone shall i hold thy hand till kingdom come? Do i have patients to wait for my hope to come? to wait for my oh so beloved savior, to bring me out of my blacken misery. When is his highness gonna' bring me to peace is death the only way to rest in peace sleepless nights is all i feel hopeless days is all i reveal sitting in a big black room alone theres no way out of the walls of this home. Its like im stuck in a matrixs with my mind constently playin' trixs some say just get rid of the dark ora but how exactly am i supposed to show ya' that im stuck and theres no way out i can't just flail my arms about and hope that someone pulls me out 'cause im stuck with only my friend depression sitting in a big black room alone i close my eyes and see your soul but when they open the tears stream down 'cause im sitting in this big black room