Deep Sleep

I closed my eyes when I was scared I closed my eyes so I couldn’t see I fell into a heavy sleep And I haven’t woken since Their words, they follow me Through my sleep they form a lullaby Some of them are nice So sweet, I’d never want to forget But then the lullaby turns sour I still refuse to wake It is so cruel It cuts me into pieces But this is so addicting I can’t seem to let go Like snow on grass So heavy, so deep I’ve slumbered through the worst storms I’ve kept my eyes closed all the way I’m afraid I won’t wake again I closed my eyes So I wouldn’t have to see you I closed my eyes To keep the pain away But it’s gone too far I need to face my fears How many years have passed I’m not quite certain The people always change But the words remain the same They’ve never touched me But their damage goes beyond What can be seen Spring is around the corner But I can still feel the chill But soon comes a warm breeze To remind me I am real Maybe it’s time With the birds and the flowers I need to drop this knife And bandage my scars The ground beneath starts to stir I can no longer be content and still My eyes half open I’m half awake I’m still too tired For spring times’ make If I opened my eyes Would you still be around? If I opened my eyes Would I die on the spot? I’m scared out of my wits But I know one day I must face my fears Eyes wide open Heart on my sleeve Here’s my token Please let me be I’m tired of being tired Sick of being sick Help me believe I am worth something more And I’ll give into this pull To do something more I’ll dig myself out Of this pitiful hole I’ll let them see what They did to me And maybe not now But in the years to come The guilt will renew itself And haunt their dreams Maybe they’ll change their ways And no more victims will Fall asleep I’m stronger now Though there’s much I yet don’t understand I’m strong enough To keep my eyes open