Defense of the Hated

You defend me against slander

You come to my aid

Despite that, I haven’t done the same

Despite that, I’ve done the opposite

Tears have slipped down your cheeks

Do you see the tracks I have caused

Do you see your own pain

Do you hate yourself

Is it because of me

Why don’t you hate me instead

I hate me

I called you names

I hurt people, you

defend me

I made you feel like you didn’t belong

And in the same position, I once was

You defend me

Thank you for this forgiveness I don’t deserve

I’m sorry for what I did

but I don’t deserve to be forgiven

Perhaps this is your first step to a new life

But then that's giving you too little credit

Making your forgiveness self-involved; Selfish

You saw me

As someone who needed defense

And you gave me that.

Is that not amazing?

Because to me it is unbelievable