FEELINGS AND EMOTIONS

Why are feelings so complicated? Love and hate - the most complicated feelings to have ever existed How can one love and hate someone? How can I hate that I love you? I hate how much these feelings complicate things What about overthinking or depression? Depression caused by overthinking; loneliness, unwanted memories, trauma, etc Overthinking caused by thinking excessively about things that you cannot control or have no control over The silence that surrounds you once you're in your head The countless number of times you zone out The lack of interest in things that you once loved The times you've isolated yourself just to hear different voices all in your head at once The thoughts that you just can't get out of your head The endless repetition of the same thoughts Over and over again - an endless cycle. Other emotions like happiness, joy, excitement When last did I hear of them and when last did I experience them? Do fake smiles and forced laughter cover that up? Does hanging out with fake friends count for being excited? Does sarcasm involve joy? I don't think that's the case Emotions and feelings... were they always so complicated, difficult, stressful? Insecurity, hopelessness, resentment, these feelings which I am suddenly now content with An overwhelming wave of sadness that drowns my voice and leaves me broken Anxiety kicks in... the fear of getting used to this I'm afraid it's too late The sudden frustration just because you are not able to identify these emotions; these feelings After which surprise settles in and suddenly I'm used to it. These feelings and emotions.