I Can't Cry

I can't cry,

Because that is admitting defeat,

I can't cry,

Because if I did you'd tear me down more.

I can't smile,

Because you know if I do it'll crack into a thousand pieces,

I can't smile,

Because you'll take it upon yourself to destroy my happiness.

I can't hope,

Because everything I've ever prayed for you've ripped from my hands to spite me,

I can't hope,

Because hope is a fragile thing that you'll smash,

I can't love,

Because then you'll see my weak spot,

I can't love,

Because you'll simply drag it through the dirt.

I can't cry,

And that is how you like it.