i can't parallel park

i didn't cry because i couldn't park i didn't cry because i couldn't drive it just so happened to hit i wish my heart would've skipped not because of the license but because of everything it all just crumbled in one one little mishap and the car drove itself one little moment where i still blame myself there was no crash at least i hope there wasn't there was no broken glass could've sworn i saw it i was just parking near my house- nowhere busy so why did i break like that with no one with me all the emotion came to the front all my thoughts just slipped into one the feeling of being alone, fragile, and scared the feeling of having nobody that cared and the thing is, i do my family, my friends, my dog they all love me so why did i fall? maybe it's an anxiety attack at least that's what he says or maybe its just my feeling of existential dread i don't mention it, but it keeps coming back ready to stab me in the back you know it's when you least expect it but why now