I Have Grown

I am a miracle

I shouldn't have been born

My mom was told she couldn't have kids

She had been through too much

She was too worn

But then there I was

I came into the world facing the sky

I was ready to see what was happening

I was already curious and excited

I welcomed the world with open eyes

Everything was fine for a month

28 days to be exact

And then my father was murdered

Shot in cold blood standing in his living room

The police did nothing about the attack

I am wary of authority

I am a smart kid

According to the numbers, 1st in my class

But I was never the prettiest

I wasn't the most popular

Without mixing words, I was treated like crap

I was bullied as soon as I started school

I was bullied for years

My grandpa made me feel better

He died when I was seven

There was no one left to stop my tears

There was this teacher

Who told terrible lies

She said I was Satan’s spawn

That i would never amount to anything

That I should die

I am broken

I am a coward

I took her advice to heart

I didn’t deserve to live

She was right, I was nothing

If the world was a stage, I had no part

I had the death planned

The letter written in my head

I was ready to go, I thought

There was nothing left for me

But on the day, I fell to pieces on my bed

There was so much life left

There was so much I hadn’t done

I was only 11 years old

I hadn’t experienced any of the world’s joys

I was simply too young

I am a strong woman

I am persevering

Since that night I vowed

That I would never let myself hurt again

At least not like that

From that day on, i refused to bow down.

The only one who could save me was God

I became a shell

Constantly smiling, never showing

I refused to show my pain

Lost in a personal Hell

But doing my best to get over it

I found love, not religion

I finally searched in the right place

I found life instead of death

The church was my provision

I am healing

I am confident

I know I have a Father in Heaven above

I realized that I was fearfully and wonderfully made

And everything happens for a reason

I went through adversity so I could show love

I am able to reach people that no one else can

I am a symbol of hope to younger girls

I am a role model

I try to be the best I can be

I teach them how to seize the world

One day I want to travel everywhere

I want to discover what I’m passionate about

Helping others is definitely up there

Writing, and singing,and acting, and making others laugh

I want to make a difference, even if I’m never renowned

I am independent