I HAVE A PAST BUT

I have a past but don't we all I have done things I'm not proud of... Scarred a child and I am the reason for her invaded childhood memories pain and suffering took candy from baby. I have skeletons in my closet I need to confront them but how? I have sinned abused drugs and alcohol but the screams get louder as i press mute harder my pain and agony only worsening I need to face this but how do I look in the eyes of that broken doll I broke her how do I put the pieces back together before they cut someone Looking into the eyes of the child I burned a hole in The past can't be fixed the hole is there But the silence is screaming louder than that child I have to stop running and hiding from my demons the more i run and hide the bigger the stronger they get Foot steps getting louder and closer louder and closer LOUDER AND CLOSER LOUDER AND CLOSER!!!!!! SHUT UP!! STOP! I scream but they only get louder They start off whispering you're a bully Samantha you're a bully Samantha you're a bully YOU'RE A BULLY YOU'RE A BULLY you caused a small child pain at their most vulnerable moment When they needed their cries to be heard you just caused more tears. Why ? Because you're a coward Stop throwing more dirt on the past can't be buried or hidden it can only be faced All you can do is give a petty apology excuses just try and fix what you broke how do you fix something if you can't see what piece goes where Time to fight these demons to try and put a smile on that young girls face I'm so sorry I hurt my self more than what I hurt you I was a kid I was going through the same thing I was getting picked on too I should have never been so cruel SHOULD HAVE ! COULD HAVE !! BUT YOU DIDN'T SAMANTHA YOU'RE A BITCH! But now I come humbled with my head to the ground just to begin this new journey with an I'm sorry kid -Samantha Quinones