I Too Feel Pain

I will never say that I know how you feel Because I don’t But I know pain And I know hurt I feel And I know how it feels to want to cry To want to give up and die! To want to scream Because everyone else is so mean! The older ones tell me That this hurt will pass But it doesn’t. It grows stronger It lasts longer. They say they know how it feels But they don’t know a thing Because they never used my voice to sing My shoes to walk My lips to talk Or my mind to think They don’t know me and they never tried. So tell me why! Why oh why do you think you know me so well? Have you ever fallen? Like I fell I was hanging from a thin rope But then it broke And now I’m dead... Inside... I’ve died I don’t want to feel Because I know this is real If this is reality… Then let me drown in my fantasy. I just want to brake down and cry!! They say I’m strong Because I’ve suffered for so long. What kind of accomplishment is that? It’s strength that I LACK!! I admit that I’m weak and I’m scared But that’s something I can bare. But now you say that I am different! What the hell does that mean? A freak An outcast The person that is always picked last. I don’t want to be different It’s a curse You’re the worst! Don’t call me that again. To me… It’s a sin You tell me to put my head up high and walk But I just want to talk But then I’m automatically crazy Or maybe I’m just lazy. Then you drug me up Because I said my life sucks! You say it’s to help me But can’t you see, it only makes MYSELF worst I’m not mentally ill But still… I’m emotionally unstable And not quite sane But who is? Step up and speak their name! Why is it so hard to say: “I don’t want to feel this way” Why must I be treated this way? An outcast An alien Less than a human Maybe it escaped your notice But… I laugh I cry I smile I hurt We’re both the same Because I too feel pain