Quiet!...

You were my bestfriend the one I could run to the one that was there whenever i needed you. secrets laughter tears of joy and and precious memoies. A friendship unbreakable. Who dare come between us. All this turned in lies, betrayal, dishonestly, STEALING MY MAN, and most of all hurt. I hated you i hated you for so long. I asked god to delete you from my life and he did. a pain like no other i will never forget the memoies that we shared. All those memoies were lies. I was blind to the truth, hurt by the facts, smotherd in the hurt, and buried by the pain. I broke free from you so why do I still suffer. I left you alone but my weakness as a person carried fourth. Still I get stepped on. disrespceted and trearted mean. All my adult years i blamed you for my pain. Im standing here now apologizing. Im sorry that i blamed you, it was me allowing hurt allowing pain & disrespect. I was quiet when I should have spoke up. I was quiet when i was backed into a corner. I was quiet when you hurt me and i finally forgave you. question is....Can I forgive myself!!!!