Ugly

Hi, I'm ugly or so I have been told, the past four years have begun to unfold. The memories and actions in my brain, all of the thing you used to say. Hating me for the way I dressed? Making fun of me trying to impress? Impress the people who didn't care the rich, popular ones, with the bleach blonde hair. You thought you were funny by hurting me, and though you didn't see it I died internally. I would never tell you face to face because that would be admitting you hurt me in so many ways. So congratulations, you have won, because of your words I'm officially done. I give up trying to love myself, I'm done crying and begging for help. No one cares and they never did, and thanks to you I finally realized it. Living each day in agony, wondering to myself what you've done to me. I can't look in the mirror without being disgusted, because my perception of myself has been readjusted. Not in a good way far from that, The worst way imaginable I can't help but think I'm fat. I weigh 120 but feel 300 and tears come in not waves but floods. I no longer love me, i hate myself all because of the way you had felt. You spoke your mind but not responsibly, and now a broken girl lives miserably. I hate you today and I'll hate you tomorrow, cause now I live my life in constant sorrow.

Hi, I'm ugly and it's very true and those who love me are very few. I never tell people how I really feel, because the thought of opening up to someone seem unreal. I think to myself every single day, "you're ugly, disgusting, just stay away!". I fall in 'love' with the 'perfect' guy but never tell him I just lie. Lie about my feelings and say there is none, while the feelings inside me are nothing but love. Not for myself but only for you, because you're everything I want you remind me of a place I once new. A place of safety, a place of care, a place to this day I wish was near.

Hi, I'm ugly and I hope you'll never see, the honest and disgusting side of me. I let you in and now I'm scared, because I don't want you to see me the way I see myself. I hopelessly fall for the tall handsome guy, with the dark chocolate hair, and the bright Carmel eyes. I'll never tell you what my true feelings are, though so badly I want to be in your arms.

Hi, I'm ugly and this is true, but I feel a little less ugly when I'm with you.

                                                                                                                                                                                                          Poem by: Jadyn Slaton