You're Strong Enough

Possession of dualistic spirit. A split of who you were before, and after. Before, smiles crept across your face Simply for the fact that there did not have to be a “good enough” reason For a genuine grin. Before, positivity, motivation, and optimism were the Automatic thoughts that swelled up in your mind. Questions still kept you awake at night As you lay pondering life’s “what if’s?” But you were still able to wake up the next morning well rested. Dichotomous. Before versus after. Now, your automatic thoughts are scenarios Of angst and your smile must be triggered By somebody or something else that Made you, for a moment or a while, forget your pain. But the automatic thoughts return Without your conscious permission. And you’re tired Both physiologically and emotionally. Those troubling thoughts that used to pass through Before you lay your head down at night are Now clouding your mind in both daylight and moonlight. And you’re fed up. You want to mend your broken spirit. And you know That your true self is caught somewhere Inside and you are not sure why its Revival hasn’t flooded out your broken self. But it hasn’t. So you help it. When you feel your broken spirit sending negativity To your mind and consequently your body becomes lethargic in response, You stop its expansion. And you change your thoughts. Sometimes it’s authentic. You feel like you’ve held the hand with your true self And have reminded it that it’s bigger Than whatever cage it feels like it’s locked in. You feel like you’ve successfully overcame your broken spirit As you try to guide your true spirit back into existence And sometimes, for a moment or for a while, it works. And you feel relieved. And your smile is genuine. And your laughter is hearty. And you’re happy. But, only too often, Without your conscious permission, Those broken automatic thoughts return. And your true self shrinks down into its ball. And the golden glow in its heart dwindles down To a cinder and your broken spirit Makes you feel small. But that spark that is now a cinder, And the memory of who you really are, And the genuine good feeling you love When your true self is titillated, Keeps you fighting for your true spirit. Because it still exists even when you’re succumbed by the broken spirit. And that fact alone, should always give you more than enough faith to believe that your true self is stronger than it seems.