I Thought I Knew Us
I knew you
I thought I did
We were ourselves and then together and I trusted us.
Then you fell and used me to climb back up and I
Could not hold it
I fell
down
into my pit of despair
I tried to end it, and you were scared.
Scared of losing me.
You supported me. We were in love.
Then you left when I climbed to the edge of the pit.
You had offered your hand.
I let go of everything to take it.
Then it was
Gone.
Now you are asking for my love.
Something you had.
I can't give you what you have. Yet,
I find myself with everything to give.
But I want to keep it. I want to
Cry tears of joy
I want to cry because of how darn happy I am.
I want to be happy.
I WANT TO BE HAPPY...
but do I deserve it? I...I feel so lost when I am with you
You want to try again?
I can't know and I can't be yours.
We were going to get married and finish college, medical school,
we had it all planned out.
But you can't plan for the storm when the forecast was sunny.
I thought I knew us.
I really did.
But I don't know anything.
NOTHING at all.
And I never will.
Goodbye. Thank you for teaching me about myself. Thank you
for letting me know all of my flaws that you said were perfect.
I will be your friend. I will be kind.
I will be damaged.
Love,
An object that was of your affection