Free trial of happiness
I’m starting to think
my happiness trial has expired.
Im numb all the time
when did I get so tired?
Why does it never stop?
When did the nightmares come back?
Why do I always feel like crying?
When did I stop trying?
Why am I feeling so empty inside?
When did I get used to it?
I don’t want to wake up anymore.
When did everything go to shit?
Why do I work so hard? What am I working for?
Im tired of being broke all the time, financially, emotionally, spiritually.
I don’t know how much more of this life I can take.
I sometimes hope to sleep and never wake.
I’m tired of fighting.
I’m tired of living.
I’m tired of people taking.
I’m tired of giving.
I think my happiness trial has expired
but I can’t afford the subscription.
I guess I’ll have to keep living
by other people’s permission.