I already consider myself 6 feet under

Even though I walk on this Earth with decent health

I'm practically a ghost in my own home

I didn't try as hard as I should have

That's when I started digging

When things got rough

I just ran away from it

I let it get worse until I found myself 

Trying to dig myself out of this 

Self made grave I'm in

I want to get out

But I don't know how

My muscles are weak

My motivation is nonexistent

What do I do now?

I feel like I should just lie in this grave until the bitter end

I'm already too deep