Ache of Aberration
On nights that sit so cold, in thoughts so old
This night won them all as the night that took a toll
On my psyche still so fragile, and emotions so hostile
My mind began to rattle, and prod and poke the hole
The gapping, hollow space in my heart that was the hole
Buried in the depths of my soul
And the demons began to bark, and I began to hark
To every disgusting remark, beginning to burn the coal
Of the manifesting obsession that was feeding my depression
And inside my chest deep within the storm began to roll
And within my heart inside the chasm it began to roll
Buried in the depths of my soul
My heart twisting and turning, the memories churning
Emotions boiling and burning, of what I once gained extol
Ran away and allocated from my love thought overrated
To be treated like a dog playing loyalty as a role
As though the affection that I gave were only just a role
Directed from the depths of my soul
And I curse the beast that thieved, intruded and aggrieved
An evil thing that Hell hath heaved, a monstrous dhole
That if I should slay the world then would obey
The miniscule favor fey but reasonable for my jewel
Beautiful, sunlight topaz with emerald splashes – my jewel
Whom for cries the depths of my soul
Though perhaps I am at fault, I put it to a halt
Maybe verbal assault and my loss of control
Caused a gap in between when it began to intervene
And I didn’t move so quick to stop the charging bull
Defeated by the monster that is dog and now bull
Crushing the very depths of my soul
Perhaps it was a cruel fate that we’d had an ending date
To end it all and clean the slate and make new as whole
But the plans fell short and I was left cringing, contort
And crawling for a second chance I was too late for he stole
The gem that made my heart continue to beat he stole
And it burns me to the depths of my soul!
Rage burns and builds inside and boils as I continue to bide
And for her I cried – almost died – just so I could cajole
For another chance to change the fate that was far too derange
Yet somehow I was drowning in such a pitiful little shoal
Failing, flailing, choking, croaking in the banks of a shoal
Breaking me in the depths of my soul
Shattering and scattering the waves begin the battering
The waves of insanity, unflattering, revenge I enroll
Through the caverns of madness, mocking as I slip down the abyss
And in delirium I reminisce, on hysteria’s path I stroll
Oh, on the rocky, dirty, yet so well paved path of mania I stroll
Warping the inner depths of my soul!
With desperation and craving, in derangement I begin raving
I plot the downfall of the fiend, finding the scheme becoming my goal
My neurosis breaks free, ‘round the delusion barks like a banshee
And it’ll feed into lunacy control, and ‘round the devise it shall patrol
Oh I promise you the concoction I’ve created will patrol
‘Round and ‘round the depths of my soul!
My contemplation is quite clear, think me demented my dear
I promise you are wronged with fear, you simply must loll
So misguided by my euphoria this is more than phantasmagoria
And I will not be held behind and I will break from the parole
The gates of the medication trapping me, the hideous parole
That tries to control the depths of my soul
And please if you may, I beg of you to stay
And do not suggest I stop or your plea will be under my sole
I am set on my conviction, my obsession, my addiction
You cannot change my contemplation, don’t console
For I am set upon my ways so you waste your breath to console
Against the willing of the depths of my soul
The lurking hours of the eve try its best to reave
But ha! It fails thieve my plot, my control
And it’s sure to be the talk of the humanly flock
Of my rancor requite pursued in the darkest hours I stole
In the aphotic allotment of the day my revenge I stole
To satisfy the depths of my soul!